Nick Kyrgios has been speaking candidly to Australian press about the negative implications of life as a tennis player, admitting that it has prompted his struggle with depression.
Kyrgios has a reputation of the “bad boy” of tennis with regular on court outbursts that have earned him the record number of ATP fines in recent years.
But the Australian has said that people don’t have full understanding of the psychological impact of living life on the tennis circuit.
“I remember waking up in Shanghai one year and it was 4pm and I was still in bed, curtains closed,” Kyrgios told Sydney’s Sunday Telegraph magazine.
“I didn’t want to see the light of day.
“I felt like no one wanted to know me as a person, they just wanted to get a hold of me as a tennis player and use me.
“I didn’t feel like I could trust anyone. It was a lonely, dark place. And things came from that.
“A lot of people were putting pressure on me, I put a lot of pressure on myself.
“I just lost joy for the game and I was spiralling out of control. I fell into depression because of the things I thought I had to be.
“I don’t think people understand how lonely tennis can be. You’re out there on the court on your own. You can’t really talk to anyone.
“You have to figure things out for yourself. I did struggle with that.”
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